Thats what they call it when anyone tries anything new. Cutting their teeth on something. I've been getting used to a new solo journey...and it still isn't feeling right...it still feels unsettled. I guess I've been cutting my teeth on finding some sort of equilibrium after a spell of freefall.
I don't miss January at all. The month boomeranged in so many directions, and the unbearable lightness of the holidays became the cliche'd morning after of all things over spent. I think I most overspent on stuff you don't find on the department store shelves-I over spent on love. Again.
Now the bill come dues and I realize how overextended I somehow got.
There aren't any collection agents calling.
Yet.
I just hope I can make the payment thats coming due. Not the "checks in the mail" one either.
No I want to pay ahead, get some lowered interest rate, or maybe pay in cash.
Cus this whole owing on love bullshit, especially when you wake up and realize you have little to show for it has got to stop.
Today I think a sunrise picture is in order. It was taken on the morning when everything ended. Back before I got the bill.
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